Writing here is a little like having a big group of friends over for coffee and cookies (not that I ever do that in real life) (though maybe we would if we all lived in the same town) (not that you’d HAVE to come over, I’m just saying you COULD) (it’s not like I’d literally FORCE you, I’d just waft cookie aromas out the window and you would be drawn in AGAINST YOUR WILL) (I now return you to the sentence already in progress): it’s comfy, it’s easy, we rarely disagree except on the BIG issues such as how often children should be bathed, and I’m always having happy thoughts like, “I can’t wait to tell them about THIS!”

Over the three-day weekend, I worked on my first post as a contributing writer over at SundryBuzz. That was more like…giving a speech in front of my high school. Have I ever mentioned I won speech contests in high school? I liked writing the speeches, but if you won you had to give them in front of the whole school.

My high school was pretty nice to people as high schools go, and so no one openly taunted me or HOOTED or anything, but that feeling of getting up in front of ALL THOSE PEOPLE, many of them strangers, and then having to SAY SOMETHING—yagghhh. What I used to do was have my few good friends sit right in the middle, so I could deliver the speech to people with friendly familiar faces.

I wonder if you’d mind going over and sitting in the middle.

6:45 a.m.

• Entire family wakes up within 3 minutes of each other.
• Swistle nurses Henry.
• Paul checks his email, then sits on the couch with the children.
• Twins gradually leak through their diapers, which is what happens if they aren’t changed immediately after awakening. But how many times can Swistle tell Paul about this, considering she has told him so many times already? It is getting embarrassing. She will just change the twins herself after she finishes nursing Henry. After all, that is what she would do on a weekday if Paul were at work. It’s just a little extra laundry, no big deal. Besides, it’s good that he’s spending time with the kids.

7:15 a.m.

• Henry finishes nursing.
• Swistle stands up.
• Paul stands up. Paul says, “Well! Guess I’ll take a shower!”
• It would make a lot more sense if Paul would shower while the baby was nursing, since then he’d be all ready now and Swistle could get in the shower. Swistle could have said something about this earlier, but Swistle has explained this so many times. How can she explain it without Paul feeling like she thinks he’s the village idiot? It would also make sense for Swistle to shower now while Paul handles some morning chores, but Paul is always so crabby if he tries to do things before he showers, so she will just let it go.
• Paul showers.
• Swistle feeds the four non-nursing children breakfast.
• Swistle takes out the trash, into which Paul has dumped something rotten. She should leave it for him to take out, but he would take it out exactly as is: a whole bag, 7/8ths empty, tied up and tossed out the door. Swistle has the super-human intelligence required to realize it’s more efficient to add the contents of other trash cans to the bag, especially trash cans that will need to be emptied today anyway, such as the diaper pail which perpetually needs emptying, even more so when Paul doesn’t roll up the stinky diapers before dropping them in there. Swistle remembers that stupid “baby-and-me” class instructor who told one mother that she should be sure to praise her husband for changing his own child’s diapers, and to be grateful he even does it. Are the fathers receiving similar instructions about praising their wives, and are we all to be so very grateful that the mothers are willing to change diapers? Please.
• Swistle packs the diaper bags for errands.
• Paul is still taking a shower. Swistle and her mom are leaving to go on errands soon, so this is not a good time for one of these long, luxurious showers. But Swistle has mentioned this so many Sundays in a row! How can she mention it again without it sounded like boring naggy wife? She will just have to take a short shower to make up the time.
• Swistle unloads the dish rack.
• Swistle gets a load of laundry out of the dryer and folds it and puts it away.
• Swistle gets Edward changed and dressed.
• Swistle gets Henry changed and dressed.
• Swistle tells Rob and William to clear their dishes and sends them to get dressed.
• Swistle builds a sailing vessel, discovers the New World, settles it, harvests a crop of corn, and returns home with a boatload of gold and spices.
• Paul gets out of the shower.

7:50 a.m.

• Paul starts to get dressed. He starts sighing at the children because they’re “not letting him get DRESSED!” (They’re following him and asking him questions.) His tone implies to Swistle that he thinks Swistle should be keeping the children away from him, but it is hard to know which things Swistle is “picking up on” and which things Swistle is “totally imagining.”
• Paul takes Elizabeth downstairs to get her dressed. (Later Swistle will discover that Elizabeth has (1) uncombed hair, (2) no shoes, and (3) a short-sleeved shirt in November.) Having Paul downstairs makes it tricky for Swistle to take a shower, because she’d have to leave Edward unattended and Edward is the kind of toddler who dumps a box of cereal onto the carpet and sits there eating some and grinding the rest under his feet. Swistle tells Rob to watch Edward.

8:00 a.m.

• Swistle heads for the shower. She first has to remove Paul’s book, which has been left hanging on the shower bar. Why do they have to have the same “consideration for others” conversation so many times, particularly about taking unnecessarily long showers (READING in the shower, for god’s sake) when Swistle has to be somewhere, not to mention how it means the woman he supposedly loves more than any other in the whole world ends up with tepid water? If she explains this AGAIN, she will sound as if she thinks Paul is a child, not a grown man who can understand things and remember them later. And probably he doesn’t love her, either, since he doesn’t care if she gets enough hot water.
• Henry fusses. Paul doesn’t seem to notice. The fussing makes it difficult for Swistle not to feel tense and rushed, and also as if nothing gets done unless she does it.

8:10 a.m.

• Swistle is drying off and putting up her hair, and she can hear that Paul is impatient with the children already. How can that be, when he has NOTHING TO DO? Swistle makes an unpleasant expression and wears away a little more of her tooth enamel.

8:20 a.m.

• Paul asks what still needs to be done. He seems to expect to be praised for realizing that things need to be done in the mornings. Does he not realize that 1 hour and 35 minutes of work have already taken place?
• Swistle replies that all that is left to do is nursing the baby, and doing last-minute diaper checks, and putting on coats, and none of that can be done right now except the nursing, and would Paul like to do that?
• Swistle should leave it at that, but she cannot. Instead she explains to Paul again how it works best if they MESH their routines for maximum efficiency and fairness. That is, instead of Swistle working while Paul gazes into space, and then Paul doing something for himself while Swistle works, and then Swistle working while Paul does something else for himself, and then Paul asking what work still needs to be done when it’s all been done, it works best if Paul works too, in a way compatible with Swistle’s work. Yes, Swistle CAN do it all herself, since she DOES do so on weekdays, but the agreement was that when they are BOTH home they SPLIT the work, since otherwise Paul has a weekend and Swistle does not.
• Paul agrees. Yes, he remembers this. But he says, what was he supposed to do? He only just now finished getting ready, and everything’s done!

8:25 a.m.

• Swistle goes to Target and spends a lot of money.

Remember how I was all, “The two-year spacing sucks!,” and then a few minutes later I was all pretending to retract it? Now I really DO retract it. The two-year spacing is great.

Silly boys, two years apart

Big sister and little brother, two years apart

Baby namers, TO MY SIDE. We have on our hands the kind of situation that makes my fingers go all cold and tingly.

Reader Casey nearly gave me heart failure by telling me she is 24 weeks pregnant and has QUADRUPLETS to name. Are you getting this down? EIGHT NAMES to choose, four first names and four middle names.

Three of the quads are known to be girls. The fourth is going to be a surprise–which is particularly appropriate because the baby itself was a surprise to parents already getting used to the idea of having triplets. Oh my god, is this not the most wonderfully fun thing you have ever heard of? I have been thinking of this ALL WEEK. Don’t you wish we all lived in the same town so we could sign up for shifts to go hold babies? Newborns everywhere, plenty to go ’round! Imagine the surround-sound wahing!

Anyway! The three known-to-be-girls have somehow already been named without our assistance:

Molly Claire
Paige Lilah
Jordan Kate

The fourth quadruplet, if a boy, will be named Chase Tobias. The decision on the table, then, is what to name the fourth quadruplet if a girl.

The current contenders for first name are Olivia and Addison. (I don’t know why “Swistle” isn’t in there. I assume it didn’t sound good with their surname.) The current contenders for middle name are Grace, Olivia, Addison. This gives you the following name combinations to vote on:

1. Olivia Grace
2. Olivia Addison
3. Addison Grace
4. Addison Olivia

We are voting here for overall sound of the name, but also for compatibility with the other three girl names.

But Casey ALSO says that they’re open to new name suggestions, so BRING IT!

Well, VOTE first. THEN bring it.

I can get so discouraged when I come upon another example of HOW MUCH CHILDREN HAVE TO BE TAUGHT. Why do my children not know that you have to wash between your toes? Why don’t they know that powdered laundry detergent has to be mixed with water before you add the clothes? Why do they think it’s okay to drink dirty sink water? Do I have to tell them EVERYTHING??

Occasionally, though, I discover a childhood lesson I myself failed to learn. Here is one I am hoping you can help me with.

1) You wake up in the morning.
2) There are cookies in the house.
3) You do not eat them for breakfast.

I don’t see how this works.

My dears, did you catch in yesterday’s comment section that Pann has started a new website for when you have something to say but can’t say it on your blog? It’s called Rant Haven, and the way it works is you send her an email (from an anonymous email address, if you want) and you get an anonymous account on the site, which you can use to post your rants.

HELLO! Obviously this is what we need. I have already subscribed to it in my RSS reader, because I want to read ALL of you who say you can’t talk about [Insert Mesmerizing Topic Here] because your family reads your blog.

Also, I think we need to make lists of what would be in our “Burn This When I Die” boxes. Here’s what would be in mine:

1. My NaNoWriMo novel.
2. One folder and two college-ruled notebooks full of poetry.
3. Photos I took of myself in the mirror to send to an ex-boyfriend years ago. They are not racy, but I am looking Intense and Posed in a way I find excruciating now. Except I also think I look kind of cute. And there are so few photos of me at age 24. And I don’t know where the photos are, because I hid them somewhere.
4. My diaries.
5. A book called The Script : The 100% Absolutely Predictable Things Men Do When They Cheat, which I thought would be handy thing to know ahead of time in case it ever came up, but I only got partway through the book because it seemed so dumb and obvious I lost interest. (“Is he getting phone calls and hissing ‘I told you never to call me here’ into the receiver? Are there charges on the credit card bill for flowers and hotels?”) I should just get rid of it, but I feel like I should finish reading it first.

I’ve been wanting to tell my brother about this blog, but I haven’t trusted him since the day we came down on different sides of a hypothetical situation. The conversation was a year ago, shortly after I’d finished my NaNoWriMo novel. A NaNoWriMo novel is a novel you write in one month. The emphasis is on quantity, and there’s no time for quality. I was explaining to my mother and brother that although I had not burned my novel YET, I certainly didn’t want anyone to (*shudder*) READ it, and I was worried now about dying unexpectedly and having the novel discovered among my possessions.

Anyway, my mom and I started envisioning a “Burn When I Die” box: you’d use it to store all the things you don’t really want your relatives finding unexpectedly through their tears: feti$h magazines, documents related to your secret marriage and subsequent secret annulment, novels so gaggingly awful you fear people would be relieved the author was no longer with us, etc.

My mom said, as I knew she would, that if I had a “Burn When I Die” box, she’d burn it for me without hesitating or peeking. I knew this would be the case: when I was a teenager, I had the only mom in the universe who would walk past my open diary in a deserted house and actually move a little further away because she didn’t want to accidentally see anything.

But my BROTHER said that he would NOT burn the box. No. In fact, he would in good conscience make a deathbed promise to burn it, and then consider the promise meaningless when the person had died, and he would root through the box right after the funeral–or perhaps before, if it was an afternoon funeral. Dead people don’t have valid contracts, was his point of view.

You see, perhaps, why I am not sure I can let him go rummaging around in my blog. The blog in which I might want to complain about my brother, or talk about S-E-X, or discuss my plans to steal his half of our inheritance.

But I’m finding I have to constantly talk around the blog: I’m always monitoring my Next Thing To Say to make sure I’m not about to say something about one of our discussions. More than once I’ve had to say, “Uh…I read on someone’s blog that…” when I want to mention my own blog. This is getting silly.

So I’ve told my brother and my sister-in-law about the blog. But! Now I need to do a big edit. A biiiiiiiiig edit. Imagine you’re talking on the phone to your best friend, and no one else is home. Now imagine your husband is in the room. Now imagine your husband AND your mother-in-law are in the room. With each new person, you have to think more carefully about how what you say will be received, or who might be hurt by it.

It is hard to decide where to draw the line. At what point is it so edited, I’ll need to start a new secret blog so we can still have our private phone conversations?

Breakfast:
coffee
ten fun-size Mr. Goodbars

Mid-morning:
fun-size Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup every 15 minutes

Lunch:
skim milk
ten fun-size Kit-Kats
five fun-size Mr. Goodbars

Mid-afternoon:
coffee
carrot stick
handful of “caramel” candy corn (whuh?) (also: bleah)

Dinner:
skim milk
creamy chicken casserole
broccoli

Evening:
skim milk
nine chocolate-chip cookies

It’s not a DIET, it’s a LIFESTYLE CHANGE.

I expect to be fun-size any day now.

I did diaper usage reports for months three and four, month two, and month one, too.

Halfway through this month, Henry switched from size 1 diapers to size 2 diapers. So the first 15 days of the month he was in size 1 diapers, which are $10.60 for 112 of the Target brand we use; and the next 16 days of the month he was in size 2, which are $10.60 for 96 Target brand diapers.

Size 1 diapers are 9.46 cents each ($10.60 divided by 112 diapers in the package). Size 2 diapers are 11.04 cents each ($10.60 divided by 96 diapers in the package).

When he was outgrowing the size 1 diapers, we went up to an average of 7 diapers per day. When he switched to size 2s, we went back down to our usual average of 6 diapers per day.

So for the first half of the month, he used 105 diapers (7 diapers a day times 15 days). Those diapers cost 9.46 cents each, which comes to $9.93.

And for the second half of the month, he used 96 diapers (6 diapers a day times 16 days). Those diapers cost 11.04 cents each, which comes to $10.60.

That’s $9.93 for the first half of the month plus $10.60 for the second half of the month, for a total of $20.53 to keep Henry in disposable diapers for a month.

So Shannon and Shauna want to see wedding photos, and Shannon particularly wants to see the wedding shoes. Well, all right. I guess I can make things anonymous enough to suit my nature.

Here are our wedding outfits, which we did indeed wear to other people’s weddings:

I don’t think we would choose the same outfits if we were getting married now, but, you know, TEN YEARS AGO. We felt pretty cute at the time. Also: we look a lot taller with our heads on.

You can also see some of the parlor-type thing we got married in, because this photo was taken by our justice of the peace.

The shoes kind of blend into the carpet, but when I was looking through my journal for a photo that showed our outfits, I found a catalog clipping of the shoes I ordered:

These are the announcements [Edited: I edited the photo to make it more clear that this wasn’t my personal info]:

Before you think, “Hey, her real name is Janet???,” I will tell you that this is a photo of the sample announcement we got during the decision-making process. The announcement is white, embossed with white flowers. The writing was purple on the sample, but we ordered black.

Here is our car, decorated for our drive:

The end.