Hi Swistle!
My husband and I are expecting our first child this May and are not finding out the sex. I’ve always loved talking names: my husband, not so much. Before we were pregnant, he said it felt like putting the cart before the horse. (Fair enough, since we ended up dealing with 2.5 years of infertility before this pregnancy).
Now that we are pregnant, I thought we’d have conversations and find a name together. Or, more likely with our decision-making styles, I’d come up with my top 5 names and he’d pick from among them. What I wasn’t expecting is that he doesn’t really care.
Not in a “I don’t want to talk about this at all,” way, more of a “whatever you like, go for it!” way. His position is that the baby is getting his last name, that he knows how much names matter to me, and that he’d tell me if I chose a name he hated. This all sounds perfectly reasonable to me. We’ve always had a policy that if an issue matters more to one partner, they get more say. But at the same time, I feel guilty! A baby’s name feels like such a big decision — shouldn’t he love it too? Am I being selfish in getting my way?
So, Swistle, I mostly just need someone to reassure me that this situation is fair and that I’m not being crazy.
And, of course, since a name letter is no fun without actual names, we/mostly I have settled on Calvin David for a boy and Margaret Rose (Maggie) for a girl. The firstborn women in my family have been named some variant of Margaret for a few generations, and Rose is my middle name and a family name as well. David is my father’s name, and we just liked Calvin :-) The baby’s last name will start with a B and sounds very similar to a famous family of bears that live in a tree.
Thank you for any help and reassurance you may have!
Meg
One reason it has taken me so long to respond (the email arrived LAST NOVEMBER) is that I have empathy but not necessarily advice: I would feel pretty much exactly the same as you feel, and I don’t know how I would deal with it.
Definitely you’re not being selfish or crazy! Your husband appears to be in his right mind, and he is saying this is just not a big deal to him, and he lovingly notices it IS a big deal to you. He has also specifically reassured you that this doesn’t mean he’d let you accidentally use a name he disliked, so there’s a safety net in place. And I do think he is correct that the choice to use his family’s surname for the children is a BIG THING, and I appreciate that he appreciates this.
The situation reminds me a little of when our household needed a computer for the kids to do their homework. I care approximately zero about computers, and Paul is an actual expert on computers and cares very much, and also he KNOWS what the options are and what the implications are of those options, as well as which companies sell what items for what prices, and what needs to be name-brand and what doesn’t, and so on. So I felt completely content letting him make the entire decision, as long as we agreed on a few baseline items such as cost (the children do not need a top-of-the-line dream computer for doing homework) and size (the children do not need multiple computer monitors). I would not WANT to be involved in the discussions; I would not WANT to have to fake being interested in the struggle over rams and gigs or whatever. I would be WILLING to be a sounding-board if that’s what he needed, but I don’t have any other need to be involved.
It sounds very much as if this is what is going on with your husband and baby names. He is presumably WILLING to be a sounding-board if that’s what you need, but he feels content with your tastes and preferences and knowledge on the topic. I guess I DO have a little advice, which is to be careful not to accidentally activate his opinions by using him too often as a sounding-board. If someone talked to me A LOT about computers, I might start developing preferences after all.
Paul was not quite as explicitly hands-off during the baby-name process, but he never really enjoyed discussing names or thinking about them, and he didn’t care very much about the decision, and of course I cared very much indeed. So I will tell you how we handled it. The same day I got a positive pregnancy test, I got out my baby name books and started making lists. I thought about it A LOT, but didn’t talk about it much. I might say “Hey, what do you think of the name Daniel?” or whatever, but I didn’t sit him down for an hour of talk about initials and nicknames, or the pros and cons of Milo vs. Miles. I kept all that within my heart for the time being.
At some point, I handed him a list of maybe a dozen names, and had him star any he particularly liked and cross out any he outright rejected; we first had a little talk about not being over-quick to veto, and about how a veto at this stage was not a VETO-veto (unless he specifically said it was) but more of an indication of which names would be more work to sell. When I had a name I felt pretty excited about, I would prepare him ahead of time to hear it, by SAYING it was a name I felt excited about and so I didn’t want him to react right away, and instead I wanted him to let the name settle in for awhile.
But at one point we got down to two names for one baby, and I preferred one of the two names and Paul preferred the other, and even though Paul said he really liked both names and his preference was only mild and he would be completely happy with either name, and even though my preference was strong and he said it was absolutely fine to go with my preferred name, I still had some trouble doing it! I guess I wanted us to agree, and also for us both to feel equally strongly about it—but that was not one of the available options. And now, years and years later, I don’t think much about it except to feel satisfaction that we went with my choice, which I still feel was objectively better as well as subjectively better.
And you’ve chosen wonderful names: your husband is right to put this decision in your hands. I know what it feels like to want the other parent to feel AS STRONGLY that the names are SO WONDERFUL, and I think he WILL with time—or he might just NEVER really care about it, and that too is FINE. YOU will enjoy the names, and in time I think it will bother you less that he wasn’t as actively involved in choosing them or in rejoicing over them.
If you need any further bolstering, I will attempt to spook you with a glimpse of another timeline, where you are set on these wonderful names, and your husband (scary sting music) DOESN’T LIKE THE NAMES AT ALL. And is insisting on his own favorite names, which are names you (scary sting music) DON’T LIKE AT ALL! And the two of you are locked in this battle, where it looks like neither of you will be happy, and you will have to choose names you feel only mildly positive about, because (one more scary sting music) THOSE ARE THE ONLY ONES YOU CAN AGREE ON!!
Name update:
Hi Swistle,
Thank you ask much for answering my question a few months ago! I needed that validation that (a) I wasn’t being selfish and (b) others had been in similar situations that worked out well.
And now, the fun part of the update – we welcomed our sweet boy Calvin David! As soon as Cal was born, it was like the name became real to my husband. He started looking up famous Calvins and officially christened the nursery “the Cal Zone” 😆.
Thank you again!
Meg